Non-stress test my a-s-s

non-stress??? I think not- I think highly stressful.

Maybe if my baby had passed with flying colors I would feel differently, but right now I am just worried.

Went for the first of my weekly NSTs (due to my high blood pressure). They hooked me up to the machine for 20 minutes or so- there was another girl in the room hooked up to a machine as well and while I understand and don't begrudge the need for room sharing- here monitor was so loud, and my baby must have been far away, but I couldn't hear anything but her babies heartbeat. The one cool thing was once they hooked me up I could hear Lester's hiccups (which I could not feel).

So I am on the machine- doctor comes in, says she sees accelerations of heartbeat, but not as much as she would like, so she puts this buzzer thing on my belly to 'shock' the baby into moving (sound only, no electrical buzz or anything). So another 10 minutes go by, she does not like what she sees- although she says she doesn't dislike it, so I am going to have to get a biophysical ultrasound.

I asked her to just tell me what they look for and they like to see patterns of heartbeat acceleration that raise the heartbeat 15 bpm for 15 seconds. Lester's baseline heartbeat was about 130- it only got up to almost 145 once, although there were several accelerations to 140 or so.

So I get to sit in the waiting room to wait, and I had forgot my cell phone so was just worried and couldn't call Eric or anyone to pass time or feel better. I go in for the ultrasound finally and saw the baby. I could see the heart beating, but the baby was pretty still. It made my heart stop for a minute, she did push on my ute a bit and the baby did move a little, still not too much, but it was neat to see and feel movement at the same time.
Apparently fluid levels and the like all looked good.

So I asked her if I should be worried- and she said no, but to call if I don't feel movement (ie: kick counts not reaching 10 in 2 hours). It freaked me out because I just wanted to feel like everything was ok, and then she threw in that but, which I don't know if it was a 'but' every patient hears or it was specific to me.

The only thing making me not lose my mind is that for as cautious as they are, if she felt there was any reason I needed further monitoring, I don't think that I would be at my house right now, but in the hospital getting monitored.

Good news of the day besides this- Lester is for the moment heads down. Also, she took my blood pressure at the office and it was 130/70 Yes 130 is higher than I would like, but it was not as high as my last dr. appt, it is not going up, and my bottom number is great. Hopefully that means all is well.