Mommy Doubt & 2nd Pg

I am tired- exhausted. B is shifting towards one nap- which would be fine, except he is waking for the day at 5:30, then passing out from about 8:30-11 ish. Then he won't take an afternoon nap and is just not very pleasant company for the evening. It is making me want to scream. I am wondering if I should wake him from that long stretch so he will take an afternoon nap- I may try that, it couldn't hurt to have one bad day if it doesn't work to find out if it solves that. Tracking shows my blackout curtains arriving this week- maybe those will help too!

Mommy guilt: I know B seems to be doing well and I think he is smart, then I hear about the kids his age walking, brushing their teeth/hair in imitation, holding cell phones to their ears, using a spoon on their own (including the dipping of it into food), saying tons of words, etc and B isn't doing that. Even though rationally I know he is on track, my heart wants to cry and I worry what I am doing wrong and if me being a SAHM is going to hinder him and he isn't learning enough. I would have thought he would be doing something mobility or vocab wise now. One of his super smarty things though that he has been doing is he will play catch with you with a ball- his aim kind of stinks, but he totally 'throws' it back and forth. Oh- and he is climbing full flights of stairs (but has no clue how to go down, and if he gets tired just tries to sit, but there is no room for his butt on the step, so will fall if no one is behind him)

Weaning- I am down to nursing once a day. He has the chronic runs from cow's milk. The ped wants us to keep on the cow's and decrease the amount and add in bindng foods. Getting this kid to eat is such a challenge that I am just frustrated.

2nd pg- wow is it different from the first! I am nauseous every day- have thrown up a few times, and dry heaved the other days. And when I say dry heave, I mean like gasping trying to toss up my stomach. Do you know what an odd sensation it is to throw up a glass of ice water 5 minutes after you drink it? It is still super cold and so weird. I only threw up twice with B- Christmas Eve (I blame the heavy dinner) and during labor... At first I was all like, yay morning sickness, reassuring! I am over that and would like a sick free pg back.
Additionally- today I am 8 weeks- I have known for over 4 weeks. I cannot believe how much faster this time is going and how much calmer I am nerves wise. I know leading up to appointments I will be a nutcase, but I am less anxious. Probably b/c I have B so have some sort of confidence that my body can do this, unlike with B where my prior experience was a c/p. Also, I just don't have much time to think about it.'
I also think I am showing already. I don't mean a stranger would look at me and know I am pg, but if you knew I was pg you could see a belly. I am overweight to begin with, but there is a bump that cannot be sucked in and is in a new spot. I know it must be bloat, although people do show earlier with their 2nd pgs, but it kind of amazes me how obvious it is to me at this point. Even DH said something.

Prepare yourselves for an update Wednesday- I have an u/s in the morning! I had my first ob appt and b/c my BF'ing and my insistance of dates being off (which they are) she is having me get the pg dated. Normal practice in my group is only the anatomy scan (so wow that I got to have an early u/s with B), so I am lucky. I also scheduled the NT for early August.
woohoooooo

And I will leave you this video of my babe's new trick- How big is Brooks?





I call this set of pictures a study of how desperately this kid needs a haircut! (and no- it doesn't always look this bad- I brushed it out to show how long it is) We are going tomorrow for his 1st cut at the same barbershop Eric went to growing up- finally!




And here are belated pictures of our 4th of July baby- we forgot to put the hat on last week (the hat is so big it even fits Eric's huge head).