A good weekend...

This weekend marked our annual weekend in Baltimore, MD- it was our 9th year in a row going the 1st weekend in October. We started dating in 1999 in Washington DC (where we were in school) and for our 1 yr anniversary decided to go to Baltimore for the night, just to change things up. Well, lo and behold we stumbled upon the Fells Point Fun Fest- which is basically an enormous street fair, eating festival, and drinking binge on the water in Baltimore. Tons of good crab stuff (softshell, crabcakes, crab balls, you name it), cheap drinks, lots of cheasy stuff to buy- and just a lot of fun. So my husband and I have gone every year

I will say- the fun fest, is not as fun when you are not drinking- the one thing I will say is that in the 9 years we have gone, things have pretty much stayed exactly the same- so it's not like there was any new shopping to do. But- I am not at all complaining, it just made me realize what the fun fest was really about to us in the past LOL. Eric told me I was designated eater- and I tried to live up to that, I really did- the food is SOOOO good, but they had less this year- I missed my grilled corn on the cob, and this was the year I was actually going to buck up and try a fried twinkie (even though I don't even like them unfried- but they also used to have fried oreos and I was going to try something darnit!). But we had fun- I love that we have a little tradition of our own that is close by and not breaking the bank. It was not bad not drinking, I think it was just annoying at some points to be with a drunk man (who would inevitably throw in comments like "you shouldn't crave pickles and ice cream, you should crave things like cock and splooge"- LOVELY , really...)

So we are back and we had a great time.

On the PG front- well we passed a milestone. Yesterday was the same DPO that I first got my BFN before I started bleeding for the last BFP. My line on the FRER was darker then ever yesterday- so we are already looking up! Tomorrow marks the day I bled, so when we get past that I will be happy as well- then we are completely further than last time which in itself will give me comfort. I posted on the success after a loss board, even though I felt fraudulent posting there, I just wanted some ideas on how to get past the fear. One of the girls suggested set mini milestones- so I have been. We just passed the first one (still having a BFP when I had a BFN last time). My next milestone is 5 weeks (next Friday!)

My ob/gyn won't do a beta blood test for me, which frustrates me, but whatever- I have decided to be over it... she did say she would write me a script for and early u/s. Shows how much I know- I thought the appt. I made with the office for 10/20 was for an u/s and such- it was just for my 1st prenatal appt. I guess it's learn as you go that these things are not the same. So I am going to schedule my u/s for either Friday 10/17 or Saturday 10/18 (if I can find a place that does Saturday appt). My Dr. said to schedule it for before my 1st appt with her so she can have the results before we meet. I wish all of this was happening just a little bit later because I would LOVE to see a heartbeat, and 6 weeks exactly borderline when you can see it- and I would rather go in a little bit later to prevent myself from freaking out if we don't see it. On the otherhand, we see my parents and my sister on Sat 10/18- so if the u/s goes well and everything looks as it should- then we are going to tell them!

so that is what's up over here, hope all is well with you ladies