Family Matters...

Can I just bitch about my MIL for a minute. And this is not just normal bitching, there is a lot going on, like seriously deep stuff and mental health afflictions (seriously diagnosed, not just me saying she is a crazy and circling my finger next to my ear).
I won't get into things on here... it is just too personal to put out there where God knows who can link to my blog. If you want to talk to me about it, let me know- I will gladly share if I know you. All I can say is that my life is hell right now because of her. And I have one side of compassion and understanding that is really being run over again and again by the truck of the side that sees how she is ignoring every ounce of effort, advice, help, etc. that comes her way and wants more more more.
I think the part that makes me the most angry is seeing what this is doing to Eric. He loves his mom, he wants to help, he does so much- and he gets shit on. It is all on us. His parents are divorced, his sister hasn't spoken to MIL in over 10 yrs, so it is just us. I smile, make nice, and do what I can- but forgive a girl for needing to vent.

So for now- I will revert to my favorite wedding pic that has my mother in law in it. You will notice she is dressed head to toe in black- she 'lost' the gown she got for our black tie wedding. Anyway, I like this picture because as my sister pointed out, it looks like she has horns (really, it is the bagpipers hat, but you can't see him- so I am going with divine intervention by God so that I could keep my sanity by sometimes looking at this picture, having a laugh, and feeling a little bit better). I even have it framed with the rest of the pics of us with family from our wedding (I refrained from telling DH about my personal horn joke- I need it)


I know, I know- you think I am heartless- but I cannot explain to you how not nice this woman has been to me in the past (ex: telling her son not to marry me and almost not coming to our wedding, although she seems to like me now- getting over the interfaith relationship was a hurdle, but she was very very hurtful), and it is not just mental illness that made her so, so let me have this one little laugh.