Must STOP obsessing

so I am in the 2ww now- 8dpo to be exact. I would rather be in the 2ww then waiting to O because then at least I know we did what we could and the rest is out of our hands (or privates). But here is the down part. I OBSESS over every little twinge, blemish, cramp, and even now- food desires. I will not survive TTC if I keep doing this to myself- and I know this.

So- I VOW TO STOP OBSESSING. It is what it is, and mentally going through turmoil certainly won't change or help the situation.

I think I am being so bad this cycle because it is my first cycle post loss. I can't win because I get excited if something was similar to my BFP cycle, and then if it is similar I get worried. And if I have a difference in 'phantom symptoms' half of me is like oh you are obviously not pg, you didn't feel this last cycle, and the other half is like 'well- your last BFP was a bust, maybe this is good'.

So for now- I am done warring with myself. No more phantom symptom obsession. However, if asked about potential phantom symptoms and engaged in discussion- I will not be held responsible for responding :) (Sniffer Ammendment- created 10 minutes post blog posting)

(and it's in writing- so I have to do it- the people I may voice my obsessions to actually read this blog!)