CD 20 here...

and I am getting so frustrated. I feel like I can't complain about it on my TTC boards, some people have cycles that are over 50, 75, 100 days... and I don't want to sound petulant because the fact that I have been ovulating around the same time each cycle is lucky. But you know what- I want to complain, I am fucking frustrated, I don't want to hear about how it could be worse (i know that) (and there are certain people on certain boards that would just be complete bitches about telling me how much worse it could be), and I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings by complaining (because some of my favorite ladies have awful cycles that make my heart ache for them)- so I want to complain- where better to do it but here.

Do you ever need to bitch about something, and you don't want reassurance, justifications, devil's advocate- you just want to rant and get your fucking feelings out and then feel better- that's where I am. I want to scream I am so frustrated, and I know I am overly so, but I can't help it- I think we are all entitled :) And this little rant is not just about TTC, but anything... even if I complain about my husband, job, whatever or something to my mother, she will justify or be like, well... you know... and all i want to do is just bitch for 5 minutes, it is usually something that I just need to get out and get over and is not a big deal at all.

So my TTC complaint of the day-
CD 20- still no sign of O, still low readings, still negative opks... CD21 is my latest O day and I have always had highs, + opks, EWCM, or something in prior cycle days to indicate it is coming.
I know I shouldn't worry for a while since I am not even out of my normal O range... but,
I am getting worried- I am on medicine for these stupid hives, is that why? I had my sisters wedding and then the start of school, is that why? WTF is going on- is my O delayed, or am I not going to O, or what.

I hate this whole process...